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day 317 - life by design! some pursue happiness, others create it :)

2010-11-13T23:40:00.000+11:00

hiiiii wadddup?! wow the end of the year is approaching quiet quickly... excited?! YES =) zomg i had such an AWESOME day!!! ok lets start from the beginning... actually no lolxz ummm yeah lets start now... my current thoughts: its my last year of being in my 20's for real for real! craaazeee right haha i totaly love it, such an awesome ride! ...but ive come to a point that im finally ready to be in my 30's when it comes early next year OMG wow! thats huuuuugeeee... like im soooo fine with it...im quiet excited really =D hehe my 20's are awesome....like really fun....one day i decided, i made a choice.... to enjoy it as much as i can....AND I DID! of course it wasnt all fun fun but there was so much growth in those moments so no regrets.... just laugh at it hehe... i mean im still in my 20's and i freaken rock ;p idk im just glad i know things early... not just know heard about it know but grown from it and live it know....like im in a different space or level :) even this i year i've grown heaps....i was reflecting last week how much ive grown (how many times have i said grown?! LOL) and im so proud of myself and really love who i am, how i am and where i am in my life, im content and not in a settled content way but content happy content way...did u get that?! i feel it and it awesome!

awwww im haaaappeeee! hope ur all happeee and great too! OK updates: work is busy but good, i wish it was more creative and less processing but its fine coz i like the culture, people and the environment. my projects and creative pursuits are okay hehe i wish ive done more but its getting on the right track so its all good. my TO DOs....well yeah i still have to do them =p it never ends, always something new and sometimes cool to do and discover and share, sometimes not cool but they should be done. hmmm health....umm yeah i need to work harder on this and be less indulgent =p finance...I soo need to save more!! lovelife ummm whatever happens happens hehe. my attitude and outlook.... AMAZING! my family and friends are THE BEST! oh yeah.... ive taken a hiatus/break from social networking mainly because it has distracted me A LOT for a loooong time... yessss i tried to minimise it, use them moderately, but still i get stuck being on it SOOO i decicded to cut it till i get the way overdue things i need to do DONE and SORTED.... soooo i can get back on the right track before i start that again hehehe see i get over involved sooo much so easily sooo yeah nooo tumbling, boothing, tweeting, facebooking, etc till ive accomplish my goals and maybe learn some more discipline and balance =D i still have soo much to learn & realize wooo! also been looking for places to do some volunteer but cant find anything that suits me yet.... its always good to give and help....kindness rocks, no matter how small....it multiplies and ripples far and wide so do it always!

soo yeaaaaahh some recent events: last night i meet up with my UNIfriends to the city after work for some yummy dinner and see a show FAME - the musical, coz my friend got a great discount....it was really goooood...i feel inspired after the show! its good to try and see new things and learn and explore the things life has to offer! today went out with my HSfriends for lunch then went to the beach for Scultptures by the Sea, art outdoors by the beach mmm i love nature & self-expression, the weather was perfect, sunny hot breezy, then after we did some shopping and chill at a cafe which was lots of laughing & random convos and D&Ms awwww. tonight after this blog prolly do some reading, maybe research some things and sleeeeping early! tomorrow do some chores and errands then spend time with my family awww family times is sooo comfy and easy. so yeah thats about it....thats why i love my life and i feel so blessed and loved <3 thank you god! hmm i miss loved ones but i know they are in my heart always, always. my life is so full and i love it WOOOOooooo!

sooo YEAH the title PART 1: life by design! its all about knowing and having an idea about your life and what u want, what makes u happy and being aware and being in the moment to connect with the things you do and what u want to do to enrich ur spirit =D and PART 2: some pursue happiness, others create it :) hmmm exactly that.....its always in you sooo dont go chasing it....just be it....happy! oh this pix is from today! hahaha wow this is hardcore reflections. its good to read back on these... so yeah enjoy! <3 love, abundance and joy to us all...always! =) xo

day 290 - encourage & bless

2010-10-17T23:54:00.001+11:00

awesome weekend! i should be sleeping, back to work tomorrow. relos just left. saturday: sleep-in, clean-up & errands, chill, catch up on tv & reading, google reader, nap, internet, edit & organised stuff. sunday: sleep-in, chill with siblings & cousins, family movie & picnic, nap, dinner with relos, chill with the kiddies so cute! i watched something really sad. these people in deep poverty who feels and cant see any other way to feed themselves and their family or need medication or freedom...they end up doing desperate things like sell drugs, steal, slave labour, prostitution, escape and cross dangerous boundaries, many risk their life everyday just so they could eat. knowing these things i dont know, some issues dont really matter to me, they seem so insignificant. i sound heartless saying that....im sorry. i guess it does matter, their concerns are honest and they are hurting and i hope they find happiness, whatever form that may be. but honestly sometimes my reaction isnt symphathy, a fault i still need to learn..... really u are complaining about that? you are still talking about that? is that still an issue? i guess that is their life and its not my place to judge them, i shouldn't. we are all here for a reason and my reasons aren't yours, maybe they are still growing and learning....they see and feel other things. i must remember that we all have a role to play and what you are doing is also important, we are doing our bit like my fave quote "No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted" it all counts. their insecurities and burdens, their hurts and sadness, we all have times like these... i guess these are stepping stones to growth and i hope we do grow from these experiences. thats why i rarely get sad about things....i see things differently now, situations that used to bother me, things i used to hold on to, thoughts i repeat over and over, feelings i used to carry.........i just let them come and go, i travel light these days hehe and there are other stories of people who triumph against all the things that life throws at them, they feel peace in the midst of chaos, they find ways to survive and succeed, they are grateful for what little they have, they share their joy & service tirelessly...they give me strength and inspiration. there are so many stories, 6 billion stories and counting, great or small...they count, we all count, we can all learn from each other, i dont want to judge anymore hehehe just encourage & bless them. i should sleep now, been thinking about this all weekend. goodnight =) happy spring <3

day 274 - there's a time for everything

2010-10-01T23:42:00.002+10:00

as much as i wish it wasn't so that statement, there's a time for everything, is very much true. i tried and tried and i can't go back, not really, we can only embrace now, but not even hold on to it because its fleeting so make sure you dont miss it. there's a flow and with little effort you can live in it and expereince life with ease and abundance and somehow its all connected and in sync with everything, its magic! oh time. time to laugh. time to say goodbye. time to rest. time to rejoice. time to forgive. time to begin again. time to cry. time to love. time to let go. time to play. time to stop. time to heal. time to learn. there are so many things i feel and remember, so many thoughts and decisions, so many things i can't say, so many things i wish it didn't happen. some things i didn't ask for. some things you can't give. im not waiting anymore.... i'm moving forward and upward coz its definetely time. i think its also time for me to sleep hehehe WOOooo! long weekend =D

day 255 - you will always be here

2010-09-12T21:06:00.002+10:00

yesterday was my cousin's wedding it was really good, a happy family celebration. today it was the hardest thing, i didn't want to let you go and it hurt so so much but it was time. im sad because i will always miss you but its not goodbye. i will remember the good times and i'm thankful for the time we had. you're here, i can feel you in my heart.

day 250 - all we have is now, lets be great!

2010-09-07T21:15:00.002+10:00

things are moving so fast, i still don't know how to stop time or make it all better but we had time to do random dancing haha, we talked underneath the starry sky, watch a beautiful spring sunrise, laugh during a sun shower, eat yummmy food, made funny faces to each other, smile about the good times, just sit there...together...breathing and being alive - thats enough for me hmm and many many more things. i savour these moments because they are with you and i'm glad we have now, those nows we created because its important, you're important to me. we lose focus nearly everyday but everyday we need to remind ourself to make the most of now, its all we have. so many changes needs to happen, i dont realize how much bad habits i pick up unknowingly, why do i do it.... i dont know but looking back its not something i want to continue doing, instead do things that will enrich my life and those i love, im over wasting my time, doing, thinking, feeling those things coz at the end of the day it all amounts to a big waste of time lolxz. whatever happens happens, im not going to be that person again, its time for greatness, its time to be in the moment, another lesson i learned from you, from this....you'll be all good again ok! so lets be great together...all of us, its the only way to be & this photo is about zooming freely =] xoa

day 229 - always & forever

2010-08-17T19:45:00.000+10:00

hello there, wow its been a while. i hope you are all well and good. im okay. hmmm i dont know how i feel or what to feel....content, sad, tired, sick, happy. a lot has happened and time sucks, please stop or can we go backwards?! gosh some days i wish i could go on a coma or wake up and find that it was all a dream. things change so fast especially during this winter when things should be dormant. fuck! why? i dont want to let go. i dont want things to change. i dont like goodbyes. i dont like death. im trying so hard to be upbeat and make the most of now coz that's what we have, yesterday is gone, tomorrow is not guaranteed and that leaves this moment and what are you going to do about it? how are you going to use this time? im suppose to like change, my aquarian sun likes change but my taurus moon hates it. change is good, i dont mind change but when it comes to those i love....no, please be here always and forever. urghhhh. i am making the most of this time to be joyful & grateful, to make more happy memories but i have moments when i slip into this helpless & scared feeling, it seems to be haunting me and i just want it to fuck off, how?! i've been feeling sick the last couple of days and today i decided to take a day off work. i rested and also got a lot of things done, i think i spent my time well ;] hmmm there is only so much time to feel sadness, we've got to live!!! to be here now...to be happy...soooo happy that doubt and sorrow disappears from embarassment haha just breathe and smile. soooo why did i chose this photo. i think it represents hope and faith....that its gonna be okay, it will be. take care <3

day 131 - sometimes

2010-05-11T22:41:00.000+10:00

there are times when you just need to close your eyes and surrender. there are times when all you can do is laugh at yourself or at a situation. right now i'm sad and tired and angry and scared and weak. i know yet i dont know at the same time. i just want to sleep it off. i pray tomorrow these hurt heals or fly away, if not i will be here for those parts of myself that needs love, i know God's with me always. i like taking photos in the passenger seat like this, they remind me of something.

day 124 - let the adventure begin...again!

2010-05-04T19:48:00.002+10:00

i have been meaning to write here like a lot esp since the hurt and lost moment which was a few weeks ago. i was hurting and lost like i said hahaha anyways i just felt so disappointed & beaten and didnt know what to do or feel. why why why. so i tried to forget and ignore it but it was always there. how how how. but then one night i was washing the dishes....then BAM! i am not lost or hurt anymore... I AM FREE & LOVE! and i smiled and maybe started dancing or jumping haha it was a GRAND MOMENT and i felt soo much lighter! all those times i was thinking about situations and feeling crap and then the next moment i was feeling amazing, nothing has changed except the way that i saw things. maybe i was over it or expressed it enough and needed to move on. later that night i thought about it more and realized WHY AND HOW i felt that way and it was because of other peoples actions or reactions, consciously or unconciously, and i was like no i am not gonna take that shit coz i know i'm better than this, its my life and i deserve to be happy, so if its not working then its not working. we are all free and love! life isnt suppose to be a struggle so yeah let the adventure continue and this time i have some new tools ;p hehehe this photo was from a photoshot trip to the mountains... i love it there! its autumn and its all about changes. great awesome changes. so i made a list, small steps, im ready!

day 102 - defining moments

2010-04-12T22:06:00.003+10:00

heloooo thereee! long time no write. so much has happened, its crazy actually, well not crazy: some good, some bad, some awesome, some blah but either way its perfectly happening. i want to write in point form but it will be too vague but i also want to sleep soon sooo i guess it will do. 01. letting something burn coz its too much sometimes you just have to let it go and it FREEs you 02. a door closes and another door opens, a window, the pet door and the whole roof collapses as well hahaha 03. then the unexpected happens that just ignites everything back to life :p life is crazy beautiful...its a huge ozymoron! so cliche right haha there's been a lot of defining moments and ive been handling them a lot better than before...thats the difference and i think im growing up! :) i can see something beyond the darkness and its pretty just like this photo taken at the local lookout when my siblings took our cousin to see it. pretty lights...they are everywhere....just look for them, it gets easy when u do it often enough <3 always & always

day 091 - self love

2010-04-01T22:29:00.003+11:00

last week was horrible i wanted and needed validation for some reason not for my image but for a choice where i was struggling in deciding if i should do the right thing or the good thing. then i realize i need to do what is right and good for me, i need self-confidence, self-belief, self-validation.... not look for it elsewhere. i have to be real to myself, i know its cliche :p and highschool self-esteem 101 all over again but again i forgot to like me, love me and whatever i do its my choice, my responsibility and just own it.

as you can see from this photo collage its all me me me in my Winter 2009 gear hahaha. we need to live an empowered life. love who we are, be ok with our decisions and enjoy the life we are choosing to live, if not then do something about it, switch it up, spice it up, just do it :D

after waking up to that this week has been amazing! i've stopped questioning myself or better i've been asking all the right questions and its such a fantastic feeling. this also carried on to other things.... not just with that person and that decision but for other people and other situations in my life. i feel better about myself, i am reacting differently to other's peoples actions, i dont breakdown or hideaway, feel neglected, unworthy, small, un-loved, scared etc. because i know its all in my head and right now its saying i am awesome and i feel great coz i am! i am sure u are too :)

day 073 - you already have it in you

2010-03-14T21:14:00.006+11:00

its already 7:35pm. i think i opened to type this up more than an hour ago with my late afternoon coffee ready. in the mean time i took some photos outside, pet & feed the doggies, prepared dinner (we are having wraps tonight!) - now waiting for the familia so we can eat together. we ate breakfast together this morning, it was really nice - talking, eating & laughing, a great way to start the day :) there are so many things in my mind to write & share here but now its all kinda gone. its funny how you have all these things to say or do and then you completely forget about them and you end up doing something else.
summer is definitely over although the day is warm the nights & early mornings are getting cold. the days are getting shorter, i miss you summer very much. your warm endless days and sweet promises. autumn is a different time, very different. its all about change and im not very good with change. oh change, i wish i could embrace you, jump fearlessly and embark on something new. maybe ive said all these before, right now its all new to me. maybe this time i will jump.

my cousin said something about switching it up & keeping things fresh especially coz most of us have this daily routine where we feel stuck. well get unstuck and do something different & enjoy those little moments. you don't wanna waste today, tomorrow, this week, this month, this year haha and if you want to be this or that then BE IT, dont wait just BE IT coz its already in you so help it manifest by being that person you want to be. dont worry what other people say, what THEY think of you is none of YOUR business lolz and thats THEIR energy being wasted, concentrate YOUR energy doing what you love, what makes you happy, what gets you excited and when you are filled with this light......you empty yourself - you give and you share this with others and you are ready to be filled again, like that bruce lee quote! i took this photo on the way to the train station for work. get your shine on!

day 066 - unexpected gift

2010-03-07T22:21:00.005+11:00

i really wanted to blog last night but i was hella tired even the night before - its a weekend and i slept before 11pm, i really needed it. last weekend was full on and after that i was feeling really sad until the last couple of days when it got better. i was out all day today and wanna sleep right now but i really want to get this down, im not good at explaning myself but imma try. ive said REALLY a lot havent i haha. anyways how cool am i? drinking soy milk on the rocks :p

i was thinking about how connected we are. most of the time we dont know how much we are affecting or affected another person. i mean you are doing your own thing and im doing something completely different but then one day i feel this emptyness and then you randomly do something and all of a sudden it just fits and fills that void. it could be a smile you gave, something i read that you wrote, a kind word or caring gesture, a painting, a song, random comment or conversation, magazine ad, a line in a book, an artwork or graffiti, a scene in a movie, anything really. its just crazy how that happens and its just what you needed.

sometimes you have to ask for it and be ready to listen coz someone up there is looking out for you, you are always loved and never alone. i think thats just amazing. last week was horrible. all i thought about was doubt and i just felt so hopeless. i often forget how to be grateful and all i saw was how stuck i am blah blah blah then suddenly there it was this random unexpected gift that made it all better then another one and another one and then i remembered how to be happy again. i mean we always have it but sometimes we need that little spark to get us shining again! thnx u for that <3 always! this photo...hmmm sometimes what we think are barriers are just a pretty rock wall and the doorway is just around the corner. i want to blog more xo

day 052 - progress report

2010-02-21T20:42:00.000+11:00

im so sorry for the lack of update. it was my idea to post a photo a day & i also said i would video log, i do sometimes but i rather not post it for all to see, maybe one day, but at least you get these photos & my rambling blog. progress: im good actually. it was my birthday on the 11th and i took some time off, i had fun & chillaxed =D wow we are on day 52! this is a photo of my fave carnival ride (roller coasters are awesome too!) the ferris wheel <3 they have this in the city and i wanna go ride it but its hella $$$ lolz. life is like a ride, it guess up and down round and round but you know what sometimes you need stop, re-evaluate and maybe get on a different ride! haha WOOOOooooo

day 040 - its not real

2010-02-09T22:59:00.004+11:00

just quickly before i sleep, i was talking to my workfriend about her realization about romanticizing everything and when it falls apart, well you know how it ends for the delusional person lolz. this is just spilt coffee, nothing more. i seem to do this all the time. will def try not do it again or i need to clean up more mess. sometimes though i get too carried away adding too much milk or stirring too fast. i should take her advice and just take care, lightly. no more explanations, no more excuses. im def cool with that! goodnight.

day 038 - the golden list

2010-02-07T22:50:00.002+11:00

okay this is becoming a weekly update, i really want to make it daily or at least a couple of times a week but i guess its good to see things in recap hmm haha. i thought february will be my month but so far its pretty shitty. i really dont want to complain but crappy stuff (work, health, relatives, progress, guilt) are just happening and i know these aren't what you call major problems, they are annoyance that i dont need grrr FUCK! breathe. i just dont want to deal with it, its pissing me off just thinking about it :/

im just glad i have things that made this week a little easier (family, friends, sweet messages, day-off work, gifts) which is what i should be concentrating on. i read this book i forgot the title but this character makes a Golden List before he sleeps, when he wakes up or when he needs a reminder. this list is basically all the great things in his life. okay now im smiling again just thinking about my golden list :)

this photo was taken when my family took our relos to see the Blue Mountains. its funny actually coz when we got there it was so foggy that you cant see anything at all LOLZ sooo we decided to walk down the valley and underneath the fog we saw the mountains, cliffs and forest. it was worth the hike and all we did was try and we saw, it was beautiful. so just like the golden list, if you try enough u will see and feel the joy!

day 031 - action action

2010-01-31T21:17:00.003+11:00

january is over and it was gooood! great actually :D i think i CHILL too much lolz i mean its good to chill and just take it easy but its time for some action action. it seems that everyone is telling me to do something, i mean i do some things but i know i could do more. its like someone up there is telling the people i hang with to give me a message DO MORE. i spoke to my cousin from Seattle and she goes "there is no growth in comfortable" a friend skyped me a quote "action is the key foundation to success" another friend is pushing me to drop some of my bad habits coz they know how awesome i am and a few others have said something similar. this requires discipline to do more, i know the goals and i can plan but its the discipline to keep at it. urghh i wish there was a magic potion for this coz i am the master or indulgence and distraction :p but yeah action action is gonna be my february motto. this photograph was taken from our front yard, i was watering the garden when i saw this sunset, i guess it symbolize the fire stirring... action! just do it y'all :p

day 026 - stay beautiful

2010-01-26T21:09:00.011+11:00

hi, i thought id post a happy flower photo since all the prev pix look sad and dark. we had a great Australia Day with the family! i ate so much again hmm. we got some news and i just hate it when other peoples decision finds a way to affect our lives and whats worst is when they keep doing it over and over again. its hard because all you want is the best for them. be cruel to be kind, i dont know. im tired, i feel weird like kinda sick so i should sleep early like now. so hope the world and other peoples bad choices dont change us negatively, lets stay soft, strong & beautiful like this dahlia from our backyard :)

day 025 - you legend!

2010-01-26T00:02:00.001+11:00

11:38pm and im having a moment of weakness. sometimes you do need to be alone, sometimes you need to cry & let it all out. sometimes you need to be angry and feel scared. i am not always happy and hopeful. there are times when i just want to disappear and be sad. my fave book has this quote "That which yields is not always weak" i believe that. we need time to heal & adjust. just like nature and how it balances things with sunny days and storms. the trick is to do it gracefully. dont think its a burden or that you are not a strong person, you need to face yourself with kindness and compassion. find the lesson and grow from it. these times are important because we get a chance to either get bitter, do it all over again or move beyond it. i hope we always find the light. so i guess like this city photo when it gets dark the buildings light up hehehe keep your shine on always! im so glad tomorrow is Australia Day! public holiday :D aussie aussie aussie oi oi oi WOOoooo i just wanna sleep-in & chill at home with the family with BBQ lunch and a movie or 2! coz i know the next day after work im meeting friends for dinner so i'll be home late hmm. love sleeep time...goodnight xo

day 023 - what you do with your time

2010-01-23T19:07:00.004+11:00

thats so true "its not what you say, its what you do" no matter how much say it or want it but if u dont do anything or act on it then its really nothing. you can tell a whole lot about someone with what they do. you know what they say "your time is the best gift you can give to someone" just something i remembered. their calling me so i gots to go. this pix is rain just because rain time is nice and you get to do nice stuff.

day 019 - do what feels right

2010-01-19T23:13:00.002+11:00

i should be sleeping but i want to stay up longer. im hoping i wont be too tired tomorrow at work...i am FULL of ENERGY! its also my day to shop and cook dinner for the family, i will have to google a recipe tomorrow before lunch time when i go get the ingredients. actually just got home from movies "up in the air" with hs friends and it was really good!

pix is of me on my work lift, what i wore pretty much during spring 2009. i guess casual is my flava LOL but i really should wear my other clothes and dress up more... hmm that will be fun!

i was thinking about this lyrics "express yourself, dont repress yourself" and how we do some and we dont do others through... clothing / appearance or actions / reactions, art / music etc. sometimes we are different in different situations with friends, family, work, public. how sometimes we take on different personas adjusting ourself depending on the time & place.

still no matter what be true to yourself, do what feels right & keep it real as much as you can :D

day 016 - open for interpretation

2010-01-16T21:57:00.000+11:00

aside from what im gonna write later everything is pretty darn awesome :D work is great, friends are great, family is great. health is great. sooo many fun times. thank you god!

ok....so things have a way of repeating itself until i learn the lesson. what started of as fun became regret and since i dont do regret i just need to learn this, laugh at it and move on. why do i keep doing this to myself, i guess because i did enjoy it but before i know it i was giving all my time to it. and then one day i was let down, disappointed and everything feel apart, things become clear and the realization just hits you.

thats the thing we forget, we get distracted., we get tempted and it sucks when you realize how much you have wasted but im glad it was easier this time around to get over it coz earlier this year i wrote a manifesto which is my compass whenever i am lost, forget who i am and what im here to do. it does get easier to get back but how can i not let this happen again. at the time i was having fun but at the same time losing myself, so i think the key to not go astray is to keep our compass with us at all times to remember it, revise it if need be but be aware where you're going.

i remember this book i read ages ago and one of the points said something about how we all need a target coz we are all arrows flying free. no target means no direction means you go nowhere haha yeah thats pretty cool right.

recently a question came up again about things that happens in life: are they random events or signs?! and the question i was thinking about before was something like: how much is life free will and how much is it destiny/fate?! i guess they are different but ive been thinking: things happen all the time and i guess we either act on it or not hahaha that doesnt sound so profound right OMGOSH i am crazy but i am not, not really :p its more to do with the NOW and how you react to it, how you see it. thats why life is so cool because it can be anything you want it to be :D i knew i have a point lolz

ok this photo was taken after chillin with friends one night on the way back to the car, i like trees! lets just say it means even in the darkness we are still us so remember who we are and how we want our life to be...

day 010 - connected

2010-01-10T20:00:00.005+11:00

hello u! i love you & i know you love me, no secret :p now thats said & known lets start this blog with a random confession or not haha hmm....what confession? i like sweat! ok thats random or not since i love summer. it was soooo hot today like really hot but now its all cool with a nice summer breeze and there's still daylight even though its 7:32pm already, i love it! im waiting for dinner time, drinking some sprite+ vodka mix, cool summer breeze coming in the window and the pc is actually working and stable today but i dont trust it so everything is backed up. i might make a mix-cd later after dinner. have to sleep early tonight coz its back to work tomorrow and i also want to to wake up early to work-out. i think im gonna wear one of my tie dye shirt tomorrow, i told my workmates i made a couple ages ago and they remembered and wants to see them haha. this is just random stuff, internal dialogue stuff i guess. OK this pix is the Sydney Harbour Bridge, did u see the NYE FIREWORKS?!?!?! its sooo WOW!!! my train actually crosses the bridge everyday to get to my North Sydney station stop and i like the structure. i guess this symbolizes CONNECTIONS... a) how were are all connected to each other b) how when we learn, new connections are made in our brain c) how we are connected to the love / god / light / source / spirit / soul whatever you call it, its there and we have access to it thats why we are all GREATNESS! the weekend is really awesome, i wish it was longer :) another thing ive been thinking about is Don't Assume too much... i mean we do for common sense stuff but dont go overboard and make things real when they are not coz that's when you get hurt when u realize it wasn't what you thought it was, trust me ive been there and still go there sometimes for fun LOLZ but i wake up and go....dont go there!!! hahaha i mean there is hope & wishes, there is fantasy & dreams BUT there is also their close cousins...crazy, insanity & delusional :p and you dont want to be them coz when they realize it they'd need some rehab stat! sooo i guess this is also part of CONNECTEDness and how we just BE and stay chill.... okay i better stop and have some YUMMY dinner! <3

day 007 - live it love it

2010-01-07T13:53:00.001+11:00

haha ok its not completely my fault that im just posting :p first our home pc is pretty much broken, work is kinda busy and im having too much fun lately :D so its a good thing actually! ive been updating my diary/planner though coz thats easy to write on so i remember it all. ive learnt a few things recently, shock horror! but i needed to know it so i can grow up, get over it and just have more fun right! now this photo is from a bushwalk last summer or was it autumn already hmm... i guess its all about the paths in our lives, so many turns, forks and surprises, you just have to live it and love it! lunch is over 5mins ago :p back to work for me xo

day 001 - make it wow

2010-01-01T21:21:00.003+11:00

so i will try to post as often as i can and also the photos might not be taken that day like this when my hair was longer. i thought id start with a self-portrait. although im hopeful for this year its not the same as last year where i expected amazing things. stuff happened and made 2009 bad, i wish i could forget about it but its there all the time. so 2010 here i come, make it WOW! what a great start... today was awesome family party time :)

im thinking of making a photolog for 2010?!

2009-12-31T19:45:00.001+11:00

a new year, a new decade in less than 5 hours? wooooooo!

i got creative yo!

2009-12-28T20:40:00.001+11:00

made tie dye shirt for the first time! they are soo cool :)

hope ur xmas was merry too

2009-12-28T19:53:00.001+11:00

hiii., was transfering photos to pc and here are some random pix of me and my shoes. i can't believe xmas is done and this decade is nearly over. i was gonna say all these things but maybe save it for next time. here is a preview in case i forget: something about something being perfect and it just falls short because they ruin it. how can you keep doing this... fuck! i hope i dont do such things. ok im gonna stop there, actually thats all i want to say about it. laterss!

beautiful under construction

2009-12-19T10:22:00.001+11:00

i woke up extremely happy. im not not sure why but i like it. i feel this awesomeness that is me HAHAHA yesterday was fun times... i dont know. the weather was cooler after a hot hot night thanks to a midnight thunderstorm. work was chillax, we had a team breakfast then did some work and lots of laughing then left work early. meet up with friends for dinner, it was fantastic. the train home with them was hilarious like always. then i got home and my whole family was home, them just being there made my heart danced even more. i am so lucky and feel so blessed. i cant believe Christmas is in a few days!

took this photo a few months back. thats my fave carnival ride. the ferris wheel, infront of that is this huge boarded up construction site at darling harbour. there is actually something standing there right now. still it looks nice...i guess life is like that...theres always something under construction but also there is always that perfect beautiful piece :D

today i feel a purpose. i have a vision. i think you need that....like a target...many targets! where is my bow and arrow? LOLZ i cant wait!

happynesss

2009-12-19T00:45:00.001+11:00

i love my family & friends. they make me soooooooooo happy like a lot <3

Random work lift photo found just now: 1. Morning with BoostJuice. 2. Lunch bought a gift i think & EasyWay JasminTea with Jelly. 3. Going home. ALSO its the Weeekened!!!

the right attitude

2009-12-18T13:30:00.002+11:00

"Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond to it."

~ Lou Holtz

i want some of this right now but i need to sleep nows

2009-12-17T23:13:00.004+11:00

i just got home from my friends double birthday. we had some chinese. my fave is fried duck combination. i hate giving vouchers as gift. i wish i had time to buy something more meaningful, but no time and i went blank. next time imma buy something when it reminds me of them and hopefully it makes up for the vouchers. night xo

i miss the old wooden fence

2009-12-17T23:12:00.002+11:00

i promise never to do that again. been there done that.... altho its quiet fun imma just chill about it. im no lovefool / crushfool :p

a bug flew in my morning coffee

2009-12-17T23:10:00.002+11:00

maybe its telling me something, stop drinking too much coffee. so instead of 4+ a day im gonna have 1 or maybe 2, thats it!

spring 09" is nearly over

2009-11-26T13:28:00.005+11:00

but i will never forget........................never ever forget..........................you

bright lights long nights

2009-11-25T09:33:00.005+11:00

i will miss you..................forever and forever and forever and forever and forever.......................always and always

smile

2009-11-23T13:56:00.001+11:00

"Happiness is the highest form of wisdom."

Jacqueline Carey

i'm ready. soooooooooooooooooo readdddyyyyyyyyyyy

2009-11-23T13:54:00.004+11:00

bounce back baby. finally feeeling better again

2009-11-18T08:53:00.005+11:00

i belong here, i miss it soo much

2009-11-11T13:42:00.003+11:00

live

2009-11-10T13:41:00.002+11:00

"Live! Live the wonderful life that is in you! Let nothing be lost upon you. Be always searching for new sensations. Be afraid of nothing."

— Oscar Wilde from The Pictures of Dorian Gray

El Nido Lagen - Family Trip

2009-11-10T13:38:00.003+11:00

random sentence i found

2009-10-27T14:14:00.002+11:00

life is becoming increasingly more beautiful every day.

best!

2009-10-26T12:53:00.001+11:00

LOL

Penguin Sweater

2009-10-25T23:04:00.002+11:00

My brother went to shop for new work clothes coz he got a payrise, i came along to help him pick stuff and he got me this sweater plus 2 t-shirts, a vest & this cool bottle opener ring :) Score! Too bad my sister couldn't come coz she was studying but then again if she tagged along who knows how much the bill would be hehe :p

Oxfordshire Sweater - Rain Heather - Original Penguin
Saddle Shoulder Yarn Dyed Multi Stripe Crew Neck Sweater.
100% Lambswool 7 Guage Jersey.

still missing you

2009-10-24T20:53:00.001+11:00

"The Rural Alberta Advantage - In the Summertime "

this song makes me feel ok, i want everything to be ok again

reading

2009-10-24T16:53:00.002+11:00

"The best moments in reading are when you come across something - a thought, a feeling, a way of looking at things - that you’d thought special, particular to you. And here it is, set down by someone else, a person you’ve never met, maybe even someone long dead. And it’s as if a hand has come out, and taken yours." — anon

Blue Mountains - July 09

2009-10-23T19:40:00.001+11:00

Some photos from Christmas in July with friends at the Blue Mt.

hello stranger,

2009-10-06T20:08:00.001+11:00

welcome to another blog. expect photos, musings and daily stuff. but if you prefer random things check out www.twoeleven.tumblr.com instead. that is all :D kthnxbye!