i have been meaning to write here like a lot esp since the hurt and lost moment which was a few weeks ago. i was hurting and lost like i said hahaha anyways i just felt so disappointed & beaten and didnt know what to do or feel. why why why. so i tried to forget and ignore it but it was always there. how how how. but then one night i was washing the dishes....then BAM! i am not lost or hurt anymore... I AM FREE & LOVE! and i smiled and maybe started dancing or jumping haha it was a GRAND MOMENT and i felt soo much lighter! all those times i was thinking about situations and feeling crap and then the next moment i was feeling amazing, nothing has changed except the way that i saw things. maybe i was over it or expressed it enough and needed to move on. later that night i thought about it more and realized WHY AND HOW i felt that way and it was because of other peoples actions or reactions, consciously or unconciously, and i was like no i am not gonna take that shit coz i know i'm better than this, its my life and i deserve to be happy, so if its not working then its not working. we are all free and love! life isnt suppose to be a struggle so yeah let the adventure continue and this time i have some new tools ;p hehehe this photo was from a photoshot trip to the mountains... i love it there! its autumn and its all about changes. great awesome changes. so i made a list, small steps, im ready!
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